13 / agape

I do not have love

love is not for me

love is not for me

love is not for me

love is not for me

love is not for me

love is not for me

love is not for me

love is not for me

love is not for me

love is not for me

love is not for me

love is not for me

love is not for me

love is not for me

love is not for me

love is not for me

and now these three remain

but the greatest of these is not for me

the heart is an organ

unless you are a poet

a songwriter

a hormonal teenager

the forlorn wife in Love Actually

my freshman year roommate Ron

my friend, the painter. we’ll call her Mary

ever since that idiot boyfriend of hers left

mom when dad had to find work abroad

because of some gluttonous bankers in 2008

dad after grandma died

grandpa after grandma died

or anyone who is not a surgeon

bedtime

there is no more profound joy

than my dog's little black paws

stretched out in comfort

underneath my sheets

the ancestors would balk

at this sleeping arrangement

how unhygienic, they'd think

well I say fuck the ancestors